I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST STRESS

First, we explain it away.

Stress, I told myself. Just stress. It was never only stress.
She is 37
I put it down to age. To being a mother of two. To everything except my body.
She is 38
I assumed the tiredness was just my weight, so I did nothing about it for a year.
She is 40
EVERY TEST CAME BACK FINE

Then we are told there is nothing wrong.

All my bloodwork comes back normal. So why do I still not feel fine?
She is 38
They told me to eat less and move more, as if I had not already tried.
She is 38
The doctor only looked at the hair fall. No one asked about the rest.
She is 34
NO ONE TOLD ME WHAT TO EXPECT

And no one had ever drawn us the map.

I only learned the word for it two years in. No one had told me.
She is 43
If someone had just shown me the early signs, it would have been manageable.
She is 37
I wish I had known which changes to watch for, before it caught up with me.
She is 37
WIDE AWAKE AT 3AM

It is loudest in the dark.

I was a deep sleeper my whole life. Now the smallest sound wakes me at 3am.
She is 38
Can't sleep. Anxious about everything, for no reason I can name.
She is 36
The anxiety turned into panic before I understood what was happening.
She is 38
SO I ASKED THE INTERNET

We go looking, and come back no closer.

I kept asking AI what was wrong. It just told me what I wanted to hear.
She is 40
Google gave me the worst-case version. The doctor gave me nothing.
She is 38
Reddit threads at midnight, and I still went to bed no closer to an answer.
She is 34
THEN I FOUND OUT

And the moment we knew, everything changed.

It turned out to be low B12 and vitamin D. A few months later, my energy was back.
She is 40
My iron and thyroid had quietly dropped. Once I knew, I could act.
She is 39
The relief of finally having a word for it was the best thing I felt in years.
She is 43

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